change

late night, and i started to read some old messages. some made me smile. some made me a bit sad. dah jauh perjalanan ni sebenar nya 🙂 i’ve gone through a lot. and sebenar nya macam tak sangka i managed to survive that. some are really heartbreaking ! but one thing that i noticed, people do change. everyone of us changed. a lot ! i too changed due to some circumstances. i may be become a bit cold. keadaan sekarang tak membenarkan aku jadi perempuan biasa or just being myself. sedih dan berat sebenarnya. but i let myself adapt dengan…

all my life

is it a sin to be a single mom ? a question that never leave my head. i didn’t set out to be a single parent, i set out to be the best parent i can be. and that hasn’t changed. sometimes i pretend that being a single mom isn’t as hard as people say, but it is indeed the hardest and loneliest struggle i’ve been through 😊 xoxo

living my life

whenever i’m alone i will always get myself attached to my laptop. or my ipad. or my kindle. and i don’t know what’s with the apple thingy, it seems that they created a perfect eco system. and i should just scrapped the idea of getting an Asus. save more money ! 💰 and i’m back to my classic BuJo. i’m not that cool with ipad especially writing down things with ipad pencil. it works perfectly with others, but that thing ain’t for me. and i think i’m just happy with the old way. i’m old anyway. living my life with…

masih

i was a bit off. may be sebab penat and i have so many things inside my head. back to back meetings dah jadi mcm rutin. nak btol kan kewangan lagi. tough ! then aku mudah sentap. org bergurau pn aku cam tk leh terima sgt. rasa cam ape benda semua orang memain 😢   may be i just need a little time together. nak bercerita and mengadu. that sort of stuff. walau pn nampak aku cam garang and kental tp ada masa aku ni cam agar agar jer pon. lembik 😞 masih lg a typical girl 🧕🏻 thank you…

penat

minggu ni agak pack dan seriously aku a bit penat. last week that two babies were down with fever 💆🏻‍♀️ now that they are recovered, aku ada berderet meeting sampai next Wednesday. meeting pelarasan kewangan is no joke guys, no joke ! ada banyak jugak benda pending dalam tangan aku. even renovation umah pon main serah je kt contractor 😪 nasib laa memang jenis pandai buat keje. still hutang dia untuk pendant lamp dan kipas. haven’t check on the wall color too.   akan setel kan hal kitchen this week dan aku bole move onto some other things. wardrobe is…