things we don’t say

so this one is a bit personal. melancholic 🙂 dah lebih 2 minggu aku rasa cam bad mood. stressed. and kadang kadang rasa down yang teruk gila tu. depressed pon ada. paling stress bila i have to fight the feelings on my own. camane eh nak explain ? kau rasa down, and you know you need to do something about it. sebab kau tak happy pn rasa camtu. bila ko tak get up, ko rasa makin stress kenapa ko rasa down. paham tak ? 🤔 semua perasaan bercampur campur. dengan manusia yang tak habis habis bercerita macam macam. korang tak…

Review : Venom

Venom dah keluar since 4th of October tapi seriously memang tak ada rasa nk tengok sangat pon. tak tau laa kenapa tapi mmg rasa cam malas lah. lagi pon aku mmg jenis jarang nk tengok cite yang main character dia hodoh or sejenis raksasa 👻 so Venom mcm dah masuk kategori tu.   tapi satu malam tu memandangkan kami ada masa lepak dengan kawan2 lain, so ape lagi. mari laa tengok Venom beramai-ramai 🤩 so before tengok movie ni aku seriously memang tak tau Venom ni pasal apa. tak tau dia ni jahat ke baik. basically mmg pegi with zero…

change

late night, and i started to read some old messages. some made me smile. some made me a bit sad. dah jauh perjalanan ni sebenar nya 🙂 i’ve gone through a lot. and sebenar nya macam tak sangka i managed to survive that. some are really heartbreaking ! but one thing that i noticed, people do change. everyone of us changed. a lot ! i too changed due to some circumstances. i may be become a bit cold. keadaan sekarang tak membenarkan aku jadi perempuan biasa or just being myself. sedih dan berat sebenarnya. but i let myself adapt dengan…

all my life

is it a sin to be a single mom ? a question that never leave my head. i didn’t set out to be a single parent, i set out to be the best parent i can be. and that hasn’t changed. sometimes i pretend that being a single mom isn’t as hard as people say, but it is indeed the hardest and loneliest struggle i’ve been through 😊 xoxo

living my life

whenever i’m alone i will always get myself attached to my laptop. or my ipad. or my kindle. and i don’t know what’s with the apple thingy, it seems that they created a perfect eco system. and i should just scrapped the idea of getting an Asus. save more money ! 💰 and i’m back to my classic BuJo. i’m not that cool with ipad especially writing down things with ipad pencil. it works perfectly with others, but that thing ain’t for me. and i think i’m just happy with the old way. i’m old anyway. living my life with…